My childishness..

Strong people make as many and as ghastly mistakes as weak people. The difference is that strong people admit them, laugh at them, learn from them. That is how they become strong. -Richard Needham I got to admit that I do agree with many who commented that I am very childish. A child wants things NOW. A child hates to having to wait and so will commit to future slavery to achieve ownership of TOYS NOW! A child doesn't worry about being able to provide in the future, that's the parents problem. Hmmm, I have similarities to the traits of a child as above.. hahaaha.. Of course, the above is not all of the traits of a child. I'm just quoting what's relevant to our discussion here. keke.. Childishness is the immature thinking of DEPENDENCE. To mature to adulthood childish thinking must make a paradigm shift to a new world view. To put these behaviour away is to change our thinking, followed by our way of living to one of taking responsibility for our own life and wellbeing, independant of parental support. Well, I have always take responsibility of my own life but I have never consider my own wellbeing. Worse, I know my parents will always be there for me if I ever fail in my life.. The parental support.. I'm turning 27 in days and I'm still behaving like a child. Incredible, isn't it? Yes, it is very unbelievable in my eyes too. How did I managed to survive all these years with such mentality? Haha.. I'm fortunate to have met so many people who are kind, nice and with good intention and loves me to take such good care of me.. hehehe.. I still remember what my ex-boss says to me.. That I would be bullied when I work out there.. True enough, I was bullied so badly that I have gone into depression. I thank my friends who were there for me to lift me up from that pool of blood that I was drowning in.. hehehe.. Especially, my new friend, SOH who has been secretly assigned by my brudder Keith n sister Gwenda to care and guide me every now and then. He never fails to respond to my needs and vulnerabilities.. My brudder Keith has highlighted that I need to take control of my life now. It's getting late.. I know that very well too.. Here's the need for the sense of urgency to change too.. My relationship fails, my career path is not established and I'm slowly losing my parents' trust to take good care of myself and my future care for them. Brudder Keith always remind me not to put BGR as priority to all others. Which, rationally, I do agree.. I will try, okay? I will try, brudder.. By the way, did I tell u guys that I'm heading for the sheares bridge run this sunday on Sept 11? Well, hehehehe.. I'm only attempting the 6km run lor.. Heard there will be a roadshow for the standard chartered run.. Heard it's cheaper to sign up at a cheaper rate too.. Maybe I shall do just that.. Sign up for a 10km run, if they have the range there.. kekkeke.. Went for run in the evening with Keith at 7pm on Wed and it's getting more n more exciting n faster when the visibility becomes lesser and lesser.. You see shadows running towards you or just right behind you.. My fear of the dark is slowly surfacing.. But well, there's nothing to fear here cos my brudder Keith will be there to protect me.. heheheh.. Tomorrow, going for jog in the morning. Will get to chat with the lao beng (nicked by Brudder Keith) again.. He's such a nice chap.. He kinda waited for us to leave before he close the shop.. Hehehe.. He even tried to advise me on running at night.. Different from hiking.. Must maintain my consistent speed.. etc.. Anyway, Catch up with you guys again.. Haven't been writing much.. Suddenly, write so much.. Later, you guys get choked! Hahaha.. Will write abt relationships soon after I made the first step to overcome my childish behaviour.. Of course, I can't mature overnight.. We'll keep track of my growth together! Ciaos..