No Jogging but a Time for Reflection..

Well, guoliang's mum's birthday today.. Happy Birthday to Aunty... But well, that's why the jogging is postponed... Sob Sob... Well, I've been asked many times over irc & msn friends abt my criteria for bfs.. My best friend woke me up with the fact that there's no 100% in the following criteria.. But well, the fact is, can I ever expect so much from a MAN ? ha ha... We'll just see abt that.. Humans r already so unique from each other and true compatibility would be so hard and it can only be compensated with love. And love dun lasts.. that's why divorce n break ups arise.. I am just a normal girl looking for a man to love me... Anyway, here's the criterias... (1)Someone who loves me more than I loves him. It's so tiring to keep giving n not receiving.. I should say I felt so miserable begging for his love.. (2)Someone who is sociable, mature & streetsmart. Basically someone with more exposure to life and the world out there.. (3)Sporty n active in lifestyle.. Love to have fun & chill out like me as well... (4)A guy who doesn't fear commitment.. I used to fear commitment till I met my last bf. I dunno why but somehow, I only have eyes for him only.. He's like my everything, boy.. I think, that is tooo much of me to expect a man to give me as much commitment. So, if u can't expect so much from ur bf.. then, what's the pt of having one then? (5)He must know how to show his care n concern for me.. I may be independent but still a small woman(in mandarin) hoping that there's someone there for me when I need a hug, some listening ears, and not just sneer at me... (6)Someone who always seek improvement in life, be it personal or for commercial value.. I hate it when that person likes to stay where he is and refuse to move.. that's not at all impressive.. Looks simple but it's a lot already to expect from a man.. The above criteria is not the main issue.. The main problem with me is.. I can't trust man!! IF u find a good, honest, faithful guy and on the account he doesn't stray now, it doesn't mean that he wouldn't stray in the future!!! And that's why I felt that looking for a guy with a past of having many girlfriends might be good.. In a sense, too much of everything isn't good n he'd be sick of it just like some of my friends and would be ready to settle down, no longer keen in knowing n making friends with girls liao.. which is the case for me. kekkeek... Somehow, if u can click with me, I'm better made a good friend/buddy than a gf.. cos I have too much expectations..